Sacrificial Offerings

Disclaimer: ***No transexuals were harmed in the creation of this video***



'Sacrificed' by Chloe 2007 All Rights Reserved.
Sacrificed by Chloe

Sampled Voice: (It's only after you have lost everything, that we are free to do anything.)

Verse 1:
I've been burning in the water; I've been drowning in the flames.
I've been trying hard to beat you at your games.
I've been crying tears in silence; I've been crying tears in pain.
Seems so pointless like I'm crying tears in vain.

Chorus:
Sacrificed myself for you, but
You don't hear a word I say.
Gave up everything so you can
Watch me fade away.

Verse 2:
What more do you want from me? My sanity is not enough.
Why must you torment me? All I want is love.
I've given you everything; I've compromised my heart.
You want all of me before I fall apart.

To many people who don't know me, I am a cultural taboo. Often called a "freak", "weirdo", "homo". The culture at large, says I'm sick. perverted,sexually depraved , a shock and twisted. Some call people with my condition, an "affront to both Providence and nature". Some people call me "Maurice", I don't know why, I don't even know anyone named "Maurice". Insults get hurled with a voracious sense of hatred towards me. They hate me, and they don't even know me.
Soooooo, who is Chloe Elise? -

I'm a self taught musician, artist, actress, cinematographer, poet, animator, writer, activist, sister, friend. I am a daughter, a worker, tax payer, renter, licensed driver, researcher and deep thinker. All I really want to do is to live my life. Gentle to a fault,there' s no reason to fear me, but people do. I am a peacekeeper, yet people want to make war with me. I'm not an angry person, yet people are angry at me. I'm the most difficult issue a parent will ever have to face when raising a child, though I was an obedient child. YET, I am the whispered secret, a joke, an amusement, and a sideshow attraction. I embody the unknown, a catalyst of misunderstanding, curiosity and questioning. That's my current reality in today's culture. and I don't expect life to be easy because its not easy for anyone, but...

I am a proud transexual woman.

A human being, yet I'm not treated as a human being. When cut, I bleed. I am treated as an outcast. Society's "Pariah". A male to female transsexual, the sacrificial offering to the god of Western society's "moral values" and cultural taboos. I was, due to my biological imperative, forced to tell those that knew me of my condition. Now, everybody knows. There is no "transitioning in stealth" for me. It would be dishonest of me to transition in stealth; and dishonesty in not in my nature. So, since I am "male" (sort of) on the outside and female on the inside; my mind and body incongruent with each other, something had to be done about it. Something needed to happen, and words long overdue needed to be spoken. I have gone past the point of no return. There's no going back. I have too many things to say, sealed with lock and key in my heart since age 4, and I refuse to be silent any more.
Silence = Death. Transition or die.

There's many of us out there. Transexuals, transgenders, gender-benders, consciously androgynous, genderqueers, gender-variant, two spirits, intersex, eunuchs. We are male. We are female. We're both. We're neither. We are a Third Gender. We're one of five sexes. We are all five sexes. We know who we are. We walk amongst the crowds of seemingly "normal" people, some of us never questioned. Some of us questioned sometimes. Some of us questioned constantly.

"You're not your f***ing khakis. We are the all-singing, all-dancing crap of the world". - Tyler Durton 'Fight Club'

We're lawyers, doctors, psychiatrists, teachers, inventors, scientists, stockbrokers, grocery store shelve stockers, insurance agents, police officers, pastors, radio hosts, janitors, parents, WE ARE EVERYWHERE. We're neighbors, family, and friends. A lot of us are musicians; most go fairly unrecognized, invisible to the majority of society. Invisible to those that love our music. It's time to play "magician" , make the invisible become visible. Right before your very eyes. Every aspect of the video above, I did myself, and also play in a band.
There is a vast world out there of transgender/transexual musicians. Many are excellent musicians, but none of them ever truly get the recognition they deserve, too far removed from the radar screen, we go unnoticed even after decades of Glam Rock, and gender bending icons Trex, David Bowie, and others.
Some of my own personal faves. are Jade Starr, Dana International, and Genesis P-Orridge (of Throbbing Gristle fame).
For more my spoken word videos/music/transadvocacy, check out my page on youtube.
***Soooo, stay tuned for future social/educational perspective posts, and information regarding my hearts work, trans-journal album 'Pariah'!
Love and Peace,
Chloe Elise
P.S.: It's great to be back!! (and yeah, Rock and Roll can save your life)

P.P.S.: Due to a glitch in the Matrix, the author of this post is incorrectly displayed. It should read: "chloeelise", not "proudprogressive", as Chloe is the author of this particular post. Sorry for the nomenclature of confusion.